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I attend to Art School, this last week I has exams. Frm Tuesday to Weneday, I spent 30 straight hours working on my projects... sad, but true. (I still haven't figured out how I made it)

The Ballad of Mona Lisa by Panic! at the Disco
:)

I would control them just half of the times. The reason is that I want to know what m inner me is thinking once in a while :). It is good to hear the real you prejected on your dreams.

Life makes you fall, life makes you fall hard to stand up stronger, life is about the pursuit of happiness, yet discovering the happiness of the journey. Life is about creating yourself based on experiences and obstacle you must fight and deafeat. Life is beautiful, but there is times in which life, just makes you pass tests that you ovecome,yet leave you with scars too deep or too ugly that is even scary to look at them. These moments, the ones that create this scars, are the ones you are most afraid to recreate. Even when you want to, when may be those moments were the ones that made you happy, there is always something called FEAR that stops you.

There are times n which I step back and just think.
There is times in which I stay still and stare.
There is time in which I look back and miss.
There is timesin which I remember and look through pictures and I cry in my empty room.
There is times in which I ask myself why.
There is times in which I try to be what I used to be, but I can't.
There is times in which I want to talk, but I can't.
There is times in which I am so sad that I need that someone, but that someone is not that someone anymore.
There is times in which no one udertsands me.
There is times in which I wish I was back in sixth grade.
There is in which I cannot stand anymore.
There is times in which I listen without being noticed.
There is time in which I look without being looked at.
There is times when I think without being remembered.
There is times in which it hurts like hell, but just can't let it be noticeable.
There is times (always) in which I prefer to keep to myself stuff.
There is times in which I was weak.
There is times in which I was not this stone-made on the outside.
There is times in which I don't know what to do.
and in the end I think
that there is times in which I miss her and what we used to have and be.

I know it has been a long time (as always), but what the heck, whenever I post I post GRET DAMN SONGS, don't you think? SO, in my opinion, it is worth it to stick around and check my blog once in a while, right?

So this time I have been working on finding new songs a lot, and I have been able to find pretty good damn melodies. May be they are not from the typical kind f artists I would normally post, but they are definitely that good.

so here it goes, let's begin this awesome journey :)

Under a dark and black ceiling is where I am siting down right now. I am speaking of the night sky, filled with its bright stars. I am nt the only one underneath this piece of sky though, beside me there is a few crickets singing their natural song to the night; I cannot see them, that is right, but I can surely listen to them, and to be honest I haven't enjoyed that sound this much in a while.
Is this my way to welcome New Year? To welcome this 2010, a year that I am sure will mean a lot to me, even more than I am expecting it to mean? Yes, I think so. This is mew welcoming this year, in a way I have never done it before.
The first week of 2010 has already passed by, without me noticing it, or may be I did noticed it a bit. Why I am sitting outside? The simple answer is to say that this year I will think and feel more the little details of life. I want to enjoy nature more than I used to, if I call myself a GO GREEN girl, I think I really need to do some changes in myself. I mean, protecting Mother Nature is not just recycling, or trying to use both sides of a bond page of paper, or trying not to contaminate rivers or waste energy in stupid things. It is more than that, it is actually enjoying what you are protecting. It is realizing that there is a whole world out there besides you and the 6 billion people living with you in this planet. There is insects that need nature to survive, there is other animals, plants and even more, there is water that helps you to survive day with day. What about all those little things that we ignore all the time? Have you ever put mind on them?
Like the wind blowing your hair for example, or the sun caressing your skin on a sunday morning, while you drink a cup of coffee or listen to your favorite song. I am also not just speaking about nature itself, but about all the little moments so special in life that you ignore day with day? The little smile that a cute puppy puts on your face, or the great feeling you have on your tongue, brain and stomach when you try that piece of your favorite candy. It is all about little things after all, and the best thing about this little things is that no matter what you are living through, or what kind of problems you are having in life, this little details of your life are always going to be there.
Learn to appreciate them, from the little sound a cricket does outside your window on a summer night, to the cold breeze that makes you feel chill on a winter afternoon. This year think about all those little moments that never really leave you. About those little minutes in life you ave to enjoy, about that little smiles that pop up on your face for anything cute crossing in front of you, or the shy blush that your face lets be seen when anyone says something nice to you.
These new year, try to enjoy everything about your life, try to be happy at all time, and just don't forget that these little moments will always be there, to make you happy, even in your worse moments.

As you all might already noticed, 2009 is about to come to an end, which turns this post into my last post of the year.
Being it, I would like, first of all, apology for my lack of responsability about my blog updates. It is true, I baely update it, and a blog needs constance and updates.
Moving on, I would like to wish you all a 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' full of joy and blessings from our God. I hope that this year to come brings you work, health, fortune and good stuff. Try to be better persons yes? Try to think and love your fellows, as well as treat nicely your family and friends. Try to love the earth, and to recycle! Believe me, it is important. Try to go after your dreams and fullfill your own expectations about yourself. Try to fight for what you believe and to stick to it.
I wish you the best of the lucks on anything you try to do, and also if you have any year resolution, try to actually work to make it real.

This are the wishs of:

ME!! =D!
xoxo!!


p.s: I promise to be more responsible next year!

ENOUGH!!! I am so making people actually read my LJ!!

I have no idea if you guys knew this, but I ADORE to write lyrics. I don't know if I am good at it, so I have decided to post it here to know what you think about it. This is the last thign I wrote, so ENJOY IT!!! :)

“Cleaning Myself Up”

It’s 5:00 p.m. and I’m sitting alone
But it doesn’t feel wrong
Oh it doesn’t feel lonely.
I’m looking up at the sky
And the sunset in the horizon helps me to think right.

My apologies to my friends
If I’ve not been myself these last few days
But I have been facing change
There is a couple of things I needed to get fixed.

Bridge:
I’m cleaning myself up;
I’m cleaning my mind
I’m purifying my past hopeless heart.

Chorus:
Through years I’ve learned to let story write itself
A new chapter has begun
And the introduction is almost done
Yes, I am afraid I have to admit
But I’m finding myself
And it’s making me stronger.

The sunset that is saying good-bye now
Is helping me to find myself.

I know I’ve done things wrong
I’ve taken the bad decisions plenty times
But I have no regrets
At that moment they all felt right
And made me a happy human being

Bridge:
I’m cleaning myself up;
I’m cleaning my mind;
I’m purifying my past hopeless heart.

Now the change is felt beneath my skin
I feel it through my veins
It is conquering me, I swear

I’ll take a last breath of an old me
And let a new person raise up.

Bridge:
I’m cleaning myself up;
I’m cleaning my mind
I’m purifying my past hopeless heart.

Chorus:
Through years I’ve learned to let story write itself
A new chapter has begun
And the introduction is almost done
YEs, I am afraid I have to admit
But I’m finding myself
And it’s making me strong.

Now the healing begins
Now the chapter will use a new page
I know I’m ready for it
I know I’m ready for change.